Variables
It’s a long flight to Germany from the U.S. and
inevitably passengers travel on the red-eye to arrive in Europe at
daybreak. The vast majority of wise
passengers settle in for a restful slumber to deplane as refreshed as possible. Ideally, those sitting in first class are
quite well rested, but when sitting in the center of the five seats across the
middle of the plane, sleep is a relative term.
For the fortunate, there is Ambien; for the less fortunate, there is
algebra.
I resumed my college studies after a far longer
hiatus than anticipated. Motivated by
the desire to change my circumstances and escape the struggles of dying
dysfunction, college math became the first step towards an alternate life path.
My first college held little appeal,
although a degree required no courses in the mathematics department. Now my life held many variables, including an
unexpected trip stateside, and if I had to study a few of them in textbook form
to get to a better life, I would suck up the long flight and the pages of Xs and Ys to land somewhere better, and definitely with a better seat
assignment.
Bibliography
More than a decade later, I again find myself completing homework in
flight. Thankful for the aisle seat, I
must remind myself to tolerate the noise as the adjacent, sideways galley
challenges my concentration. And the oblivious
passenger ahead of me fully reclines the seat against my laptop as I busily try
to finish my research paper. Another
unexpected business trip lands during the last week of the semester, and the
final term paper, scribed in between west-coast appointments, needs only complete,
specifically formatted reference pages to meet the submission deadline when I
return to the east coast.
As I struggle to type in the most awkwardly repetitive-stress-injury
posture, I keep my focus on my deadline, not just for the paper, but for my
degree. It has taken, almost to the day,
fifteen years of sporadic study, mixed with child-rearing, single-parenting,
bi-coastal juggling, and career-hopping to reach the end of the academic
road. But with the bibliography
complete, wheels touch down on the aspiration to raise my boys, complete my
degree, and step into a better life.
Only now do I realize that the road I have been following for all these
semesters didn’t lead me to the escape I needed, it became the change of
scenario I had been pursuing. And all
without the benefit of a window seat.
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